Why will I even bother taking the Subject Tests this Saturday? I literally have done zero studying. I have not even opened a book. I’m obviously going to do badly so it’s like ugghh do I seriously have to wake up early and miss like 6 hours of my life?
I’ve lost control again.
I’m playing SpongeBob’s Christmas games I’m so cool.
It is, quite honestly, far easier, to channel all my sadness to food and the inescapable cycle of eating, feeling guilty, and obsessing about it than it is to face the other moral issues and its connotations on my life.
The pain of abstinence, of unmet desire, is something quite separate from the pain of an empty stomach. The pleasures of eating are complex and multifaceted. In our society, consumption is a form of entertainment and pleasure. Eating is part of this: from the theatre of a meal at a fine-dining establishment to a bag of chips augmenting the television-viewing experience. Most people do not overeat because of a feeling of hunger emanating from the stomach; they are giving in to a desire to consume – they are seeking pleasure or relief, or hoping to fill a void.
i don’t have a problem with school like im perfectly content with doing work and learning for 6 hours a day but my disdain arises when homework is added like its honestly so stressful and I would be much happier if I could just goto school for six hours daily and then come home and actually have time to live my life without deadlines and assignments looming over me